All came to a head eventually. I... lost someone dear to me. Esteem went on a rampage. Wanted to force my hand. That's when I learned who he truly was.

[He shakes his head. This isn't a day he particularly likes to remember, but it was long ago now.]

I couldn't do what he wanted. Couldn't run away. Pressure or not... I love my world too much to abandon it. But I try to be kinder to myself, these days. We made our peace.